Happy New Year 2013!

2012 has probably been almost as rough as 2011 was for me. While 2011 brought our sweet angel baby Lyric, 2012 brought some hard days associated with her. My due date on February 16 was rough. Along with mother's day and basically every holiday. Our wedding in September was amazing, but I longed for Lyric to have been there in person, not in spirit.

Lyric's first birthday was the hardest day for me. I took everything out of her chest and held it all. I surrounded myself on the bed with every belonging she ever had and I cried. I was incapacitated basically all day. I cried a whole lot for the next 6 days. I read this blog and looked at her pictures over and over, trying to relive the week we had with her.

Fortunately, I am blessed to have my maid of honor, who is now my sister in law, pregnant with my niece. [Thank goodness I don't have to be the only one sober on New Years!] I am so excited for her arrival in March, and I can't wait to watch her and Vince grow up together.

We are happy to say that Vince is nice and cozy (with plenty of fluid) in there and can't wait to meet everybody in May!

Say Hello to the new EWU Graduate!

This evening I will take my last ever college final. I will finally be a college graduate. After 7 years of community college, bad break-ups, moving 1500 miles away from home, declaring majors, switching majors,  more bad break-ups, party-ing, saying hello and goodbye to our sweet angel Lyric, a wedding, a honeymoon and now a new arrival on its way... I will finally be done with school.

I know I wouldn't be at this place today if I hadn't had to do the hardest thing a mother should never have to do, and say farewell to my first born daughter. I have a feeling I would have never gone back to class. I have taken enough time off school to know how hard it is to go back without kids... I can't imagine what I would have been with with one here.

But after tonight I will finally be able to say that I am a college graduate. There is a ceremony in June, but I have a feeling I will be a little busy with my one month old baby. So, I'm not sure I'll make it...

I am 15 weeks pregnant today!