Goodnight Baby Lyric

I have a hard time believing that it has actually been a whole year since I held by baby girl for the first and last time and said goodbye. I knew today was coming, but it definitely snuck up on me. How is it November again? I am now starting to connect events of this year with events of last year. Daylight savings time: I went into labor the morning the clocks changed and no one had any idea what time it was anywhere in the hospital  Friday, I am going with my sister in law and niece to see the next Twilight movie. I went last year and it was hard for me to leave the house for the first time without Jason (and I will probably be wearing the same maternity pants). Thanksgiving: Lyric's memorial was the night before.

I know the firsts are hard, but, really, no one can actually prepare you for how it feels.

What a Difference a Year Makes

It has been one year since we welcomed our tiny miracle into the world. On November 6, 2011, Lyric Anderson was born at 1:54 pm via emergency c-section. She was 1 lb 9 oz and 11 inches long. I remember the whole thing like it was yesterday, but at the same time, it seems so long ago at this point. And instead of immediately saying goodbye, Jason and I got to spend a whole week with her. After being told for weeks that she would pass in utero before we ever met her, I got to see her and touch her and change her diaper. She progressed so much in that one week. She had grown 2 inches and had gained 4 ounces. She had weaned off most of her medications, her PDA had healed and she was eating. But by the end of the week she had had several heart attacks that were just too much for a tiny baby to handle. We had to say goodbye. It was the single hardest thing I have ever had to do. I hurt as much today as I did last year.

But, because of this tiny angel that we had the privilege of meeting, we have also had a dramatic year of change. On September 7, 2012, Jason and I got married in front of family and friends. The wedding had been over a year in the making and it turned out better than I could have imagined it. Also, I will be graduating from Eastern Washington University in December (only 37 more days!) with my Bachelors of Business Administration in Human Resources. There is no way that would be happening if Lyric was still on earth with us. That project has been quite the battle for the last 7 years and to finally see it come to an end will be amazing. It will be quite the celebration! However, the celebration will be alcohol free for me, because Jason and I are expecting again in June 2013! Looks like our honeymoon in Cancun in September was successful! We are nervous and excited about the news and we are confident that Lyric will watch over her new brother and sister.

So, as you all know, this year has been happy, sad, busy, and everything in between. And it looks like the next year it going to be all of those things as well.